Living a life...

Living a life is like being an author of a book...

There are so many choices to make...
so many storylines to pursue...
and similarly, faced with the choice or even dilemmas of ending a chapter in the story, or to expand it further...

At times, it just gets so frustrating and one just can't help feeling lost...
Inspiration for any writing of sorts is so difficult to grasp...
that moments and opportunities just go flitting by...

It sure feels like the author of my life needs a break...

Astrology...

You know how they always say that Astrology readings or 'predictions' are usually phrased in a very generic way such that it's almost applicable to all situations, to most people?

However, because of the situation that I've been, I can't believe how almost accurate they sound when it comes to me...


Check this out:

April 16, 2007
Astro Analysis Reading

Could it be that you've outgrown this way of life? If that's the case, you need to let this old identity go. Isn't it time you acknowledged how much you've changed, and accept the scope of your recent emotional development?

A sign?

Guess what I received in my e-mail inbox today...

THIS!!!!

Dear Zen,
Here is your Work Horoscope
for Wednesday, April 18:

If you can mix work and play, you'll be a happy camper. Planning events or creating designs for a poster will put you in heaven. If the closest you can come is a golf date later in the month, that'll do just fine.



How coincidental can this get?

Splat...

The risk of dreaming high,

Is to have your hopes sent crashing down...

To be brought back to reality,

and stand with your two feet on the ground...

Capri Capri!

Again, compliments of Astrology.com... Hee...

Symbol: the Sea Goat
Ruling Planet: Saturn
Ruling House: Tenth House
Element: Earth
Quality: Cardinal
Body Parts: skin, teeth, bones, knees
Keyword: SOCIAL STATUS
Date with destiny: Taurus, Virgo
Run for the hills: Aries, Libra
Where you glow: in charge
What makes you tick: hard work
Fitness forecast: golfing
Play date: dining at an exclusive restaurant
Perfect jobs: news anchor, anthropologist
Best accessory: personal digital assitant
A sure thing: managing a stock portfolio
Destination: Japan
Pleasure: patience, respect, success
Pain: disorganization, miscalculation, boredom
What's my line? The one with the most toys wins.

OVERVIEW: A hard worker, you will find new ways expressing yourself this year. Your practical approach to life makes it important to stay focused on getting things done in a timely manner. You are taking life very realistically this year and are feeling very serious. You don't like to spend time discussing topics that are not of interest to you, and it's important that you not engage in activities that don't pique your interest.

In your personal life, you will express yourself more passionately, and notice that you are developing more sensitivity in how you come across to others. Your life will take on new meaning when you realize a side of yourself that you never thought people were interested in. What a surprise to find out that others enjoy listening to you speak from your heart, expressing your personal, spiritual and emotional integrity.

You'll also be encouraged to explore your belief systems this year. Thought-provoking opportunities arise when you discover so much of your own reformation taking place. Influential friends will support you in all that you desire. You will enjoy a new awareness of the deeper aspects of yourself and have a stronger appreciation just how much you contribute to the world. You may find relaxation through gardening or other grounding hobbies. As you explore creative ways of expressing your inner needs, you'll discover a mystical way of communicating.


CAREER: You will feel very emotionally balanced and harmonious in your career efforts in 2007. You are very fluid in the way you express yourself, both written and orally, and would do well to find work in communications. There is also a great opportunity for you to become involved in new realms of scientific discoveries that are ahead of their time. This mental stimulation will open up doors to creatively express your visionary mind. You have an ability to grasp new concepts quickly and people recognize this about you. You are likely to actively explore new subjects and disciplines, becoming adept in all of them. Your desire to learn many subjects will make you very marketable.

You are truly ambitious and you'll find that you have something important to share with others nearly the entire year! You have the ability to think freely, unhampered by conventional attitudes or public opinion. People around you want unique communication skills that you just so happen to be uniquely well-versed in. You are conscientious and concerned with how best to serve yourself and other people, so it is important for you to feel emotional sympathy in order for work to be satisfying this year.

You have your own code of conduct to which you are true, no matter what public opinion may be. You are most comfortable when in action, and you'll be expressing your individuality in ways that surprise you tremendously. This year will bring you lots of satisfaction and your dreams will be easily accomplished. Sky's the limit!

LOVE: You're fond of imaginative flights of fancy, and determined in your pursuit of sensual pleasures this year. Your partnership -- or potential thereof -- will bring very comforting moments to you. Your desire for luxuries will most likely be enhanced by a new love relationship that adds an artistic flair to your life. This special person will trigger your energetic, passionate, enthusiastic and ambitious side. You have great charm and poise, and the opposite sex finds you very attractive. Your communication skills will help you in rounding this person up -- and you refuse to let this one get away!

You are attracted to the idea of partnership, and this person will help your cultivate a realistic view toward them. You love variety, and this new relationship will give you opportunities for discovery. You are a good judge of character and appreciate the beauty of things in the world -- but not apart from their utility and ultimate purpose. Your nurturing abilities rise to the surface this year and allow you to explore the different variations of your inner needs.

You'll enjoy developing the exchange of interpersonal expression, and you will find new meaning in your life. Your inner charm and attractiveness comes out in new ways, and your love will be incredibly satisfying. There's no such thing as a casual relationship in your life.

About me again!

Another one of those... this time inspired by Win's blog.... =P
(Courtesy of Astrology.com)

Section 1: How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others
You are a natural diplomat, reasonable, tolerant, fair, always willing to listen to varying viewpoints, and ready to see the other side of an issue. Even if you strongly disagree with someone, you will try to find points of similarity and agreement rather than emphasizing the differences. You often avoid taking an extreme or one-sided stance on anything. You have a strong desire for harmonious and pleasant relationships, and express a spirit of cooperation, compromise, friendship, and fairness. You want to please that often you will suppress your own intense or unpleasant feelings in order not to offend others. Sometimes your politeness is interpreted as phoniness or wishy-washiness.

Section 2: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation
Serious, disciplined, and quietly ambitious, you are driven to prove yourself and to achieve material accomplishments and success. Your work, your position in the world, and your contributions to society are very important to you. You will persevere through enormous hardship and frustration in order to reach a goal you have set for yourself, and you often sacrifice much in the area of personal relationships and home life in order to do so.

My Chart:

My Houses:

The Tenth House - House of Social Status (Key Points: social status, achievement & rewards)

The Tenth House is commonly referred to as the House of Social Status. It is about the place we have attained in our social (or work/career) grouping and in society as a whole. Think status, the authority it conveys, and consequently, the role we take in our community. It also speaks to any promotions we receive, any fame we may have or will come to have and the types of business and social activities in which we partake. With respect to achievement, this House focuses on how we see ourselves and how the community as a whole sees us (and our efforts). Through this House, we work on manifesting ourselves.

Vocation is important in the Tenth House. What role will we choose and how will we best fill it? How much do we want to achieve? Career, professional goals, ambition and motivation all come into play here. In a more practical context, employers and their rules are covered here, as are any other organizations (specifically the government) which have the ability to rule over us. Along with our life's work comes the challenge of ruling over others, although there will generally be someone who lords over us.

The prestige and social status we accrue by virtue of our careers and vocations can be seen, intangibly, in the form of ego gratification. How we manage this is addressed by the Tenth House. It may be most difficult to tire of financial rewards in our consumerist society; surprisingly, ego massage may grow old more quickly.

The question of how we will manage these gifts, and the status that comes along with them, is important to this House. Will we use our power to truly help society, or will we be willful and reckless? Not all of us are cut out for grand scale social success or equipped to help society significantly. It's also worth noting that many of our successes are achieved with the aid of society, not in a vacuum.

The relationship of the individual to a group and to society is also highlighted in the Tenth House. To improve things and to make an impact, we must feel a real kinship to the cause; a fervent resolve to change things is necessary. In this way, we will achieve that social status which is truly worthwhile. Lastly, in keeping with its focus on rulers, the Tenth House addresses the father, who is generally the more authoritarian parent.

The Tenth House is ruled by the Sign Capricorn and the Planet Saturn.

Based on my Chart, I'm predominently 12 and 3 as well!

Twelfth House - House of the Unconscious (Key Points: subconscious, personality & defines how we move forward)

The unconscious state can help engender our successes, as well as assist us in coping with our failures. Success vs. failure: do we consciously confront our lives or subconsciously sweep things under the proverbial rug? This House might more aptly be called the House of Reckoning, since it is in the Twelfth that we review what we have been (and done) and decide where we go from there. Along with these unconscious musings, we also deliberate on strengths and weaknesses which are hidden from public view.

Our subconscious works hard on our behalf, trying to make sense of our lives. This shadow play is slow and long, and often frought with fear and pain. It is in this context that we are confronted with our sorrows, suffering, and the secrets we keep from ourselves and from others. Ultimately, we are also confronted with our fate: karma. Here we meet up with the results of everything we have done. This further puts the focus on repressed agendas and restraint. What have we wrought with in our lives? This is a key question of the Twelfth House, and we will deal with it both consciously and unconsciously. Will the answers compel us to be transformed or reborn? This is another cornerstone of the Twelfth House -- the manner in which we move forward.

We can learn much from the unconscious. In its most noble manifestation, we will be prompted to be charitable. If we learn our lessons, both past and present, we are also better equipped to move forward. The Twelfth House compels us to seek closure in a spiritual way as an aid to positive growth.

The last House of the Zodiac also recognizes that we can feel bound in life -- stuck and confined. For this reason, this House rules jails, hospitals, institutions, asylums, and any space that inhibits freedom. More gloominess in the Twelfth comes in the form of danger, secret enemies, and clandestine affairs. Beware!

While some may decry the Twelfth House as the garbage bin of the Zodiac, it's really an unfair term. Ultimately, this House is the champion of positive transformations. It is here that we stand on the precipice and determine how we will proceed. By visiting the unconscious and meeting with the past, we begin to glean what the future will bring.
The Twelfth House is ruled by the Sign Pisces and the Planets Jupiter and Neptune.

Third House - House of Communication (Key Points: communication, intelligence & sharing)

In this House, much of the communication is going on between the individual and those he or she holds close: brothers, sisters, as well as neighbors. While communication here can be both written and verbal, it also has a conscious quality to it. Think kindred spirits and mental connectedness. This serves to highlight the role of intelligence within the Third House.

Intelligence, as viewed in this realm, is the analytical ability one possesses within his or her environment, specifically a basic grasp of things and a practical sensibility. We use this intelligence to help us work effectively within our world and with those in it. The Third House reminds us that it's okay to use our conscious skills, as well as a more reflective intelligence, in order to make our way. A symbiotic relationship with those we hold close is also part of the plan. Let's not forget that our minds are powerful, quick, and dexterous. Some things will be well-thought out, others nearly automatic. Maximizing our sum potential is the key.

Early education, effectively teaching us how to think and communicate, is also covered by the Third House, as are short trips. Again, the proximate nature of travel speaks to the intimate nature of the Third House: those we know well, in our environment, keeping that environment tight.

Harnessing our intelligence and sharing it effectively with others is the essence of the Third House. How do we best state our case with others, often those we love the most? Will our actions be true to our environment, and our planet, for all time? This brings to the fore emerging forms of intelligence-gathering, such as computers. Will they make or break communication as we know it? The questions posed by the Third House can be answered by listening to that House: think, process, share.

The Third House is ruled by the Sign Gemini and the Planet Mercury.

Finally, Sixth House - House of Health (Key Points: health, work & routine)

The Sixth House is commonly referred to as the House of Health. Implicit in maintaining good health is the ability to cope in the face of adversity, and this theme rings truest in the Sixth House. As human beings, we naturally have shortcomings. What will we do with them? How will we react in the face of a personal crisis? Crises, illnesses and reversals of fortune are all part of our Earthly trek. How we confront these situations, and deal with the lessons they invariably teach us, helps to define the person we become.

Our fears may hold us back, but if we can meet them head-on and come out stronger on the other side, we may learn the valuable lesson of service, or what our life's work should be. Work and service are central to the Sixth House. The focus here is on employment (employers and employees), training, those who serve us (along with those we serve), and those who depend on us. Keeping ourselves strong throughout these efforts is also important here, which is why this House further focuses on health (good and bad), diet, fitness, and hygiene.

Essential to the work we do in life is the work we do on our self. Duty, responsibility, and personal growth all contribute to the creation of a fully-realized being. We work for others as well as for ourselves; we are at service to those who need us, including our own being. There will be times when crises of health or faith will stand in the way of our best self. At those times, we must endeavor to heal ourselves (again, the focus of this House is on health) so that we can return to the work of realizing our sum potential, of serving our world.

The Sixth House also addresses the daily dailiness of life: what will I wear today? do I need a haircut? has the dog been fed? These simple matters keep our engines humming and enable us to do the more important work of our choosing. It's a patchwork quilt: the ability to serve others in health and through work which is both valuable and fulfilling.

The Sixth House is ruled by the Sign Virgo and the Planet Mercury.

Human nature = ????

Incomprehensible... that's what I would say human nature is.

I wonder why we are capable of experiencing a myriad of feelings, emotions, and why we are capable of entertaining thoughts that should never have been in place?

Dilemmas, situations... do we love to put ourselves in such places?

Argh... it's driving me MAD!



What do I really want??? Sigh...

Golf!!!

Had my first golf lesson yesterday...

It was.. FUN! Really fun!! Despite the ache I was feeling in my back 15 minutes into the half swings... I think I'm ADDICTED! Hahaha...

I keep thinking and anticipating the next time I'm heading to the range... Can't wait for it to happen! In fact, I'm considering getting a 2nd hand iron maybe, just so that I've got equipment to practise with when I wanna head to the range... Otherwise, I might just have to use Jack's clubs... Hrrmm....