Thank God for BUMS!

God is great. He knows just what we need.

Had my first fall on Saturday, when I went blading with Trish again. We were actually trying to blade with one leg lifted up as we needed to learn how to control our balance better. It was going fine and dandy, as we practiced in our own pace UNTIL we were asked to hold our legs up alternatively for 3 seconds.

Haha... being the "garang" me, I tried to do that and WHAM! BANG! I fell... Sooo hard... That I was surprised the ground did not crack up...

My bum hurts... and still does even after two days... But I can imagine how bad it would be if I fell hard on my BONES... EUCKS! Can't imagine... But OH WELL... no pain, no gain... yeah right.... So thank GOD for BUMS...

Anyway, it's been a good weekend all in all. Had a family BBQ on Sunday at my uncle's condo and I made pasta salad... Which didn't turn out very well as my cousin forgot to tell me a couple of the ingredients... (I got the recipe from her), BUT it was still edible, just not AS tasty... But there's always a first time... Only when I make mistakes, I can learn... RIGHT?

Heh, shall make it again soon for a pot luck gathering... It will be GOOD... I'm SURE... :)

P.S. Booo Hooo... lost all the comments made on my past entries as I changed interface... i.e. Theme... OH well...

Chestnuts roasting on the fireplace...

Weather has been so dreary lately. And it's CooOoOoOoold in office... *BrrrRrrrRrr*

BUT.. it's just the type of weather that I like... when and if my nose doesn't run from it being so cold.

Anyway, time seems to been flying past real quick... with meet-ups with friends and stuff. Not to mention, time spent on shopping. I mean, all the christmassy stuff, the shiny, pretty, little things (watever.. clothes, wrapping papers, ribbons, decorative lights) all look so appealing! Hehehe...

Am just going all out to enjoy myself this season... Just hoping not too spend too much. Just blew 100 bucks on the microsoft "ergonomical comfort version" wireless keyboard and mouse.... thanks to Sitex 2004. But anyway, I think rob needs new keyboard... Just wondering if I should just give it to him, or present it as a Christmas present... Heh Heh Heh....

*I could have shopped all day... I wanna shop all day... and still can ask for more... I could have spread my wings, and bought a thousand things... and still can ask for more...* (Sing to tune of "I could have danced all night")

Are we all cleaners?

Things getting real demoralising over here... Can't help feeling like I'm some cleaner, responsible for cleaning up all the shit that rolls down the hill, in my way. I can't help feeling that unless you are right at the top notch of hierarchy, everyone's cleaning up every other person's crap, shit, whatever you wanna call it. In my job, it sure feels like I'm doing things that are so unimportant, and that others have a bigger and more significant role in the big picture.

Yeah, it's true that a single cell (though single, though seemingly insignificant) is the basis of all living organism but I just can't do this much longer. I have concluded that my job is a hazard to my overall personal well-being. It's a hazard to:

1. My personal development--I don't feel I'm developing very much in anyway... skills, knowledge, character... in this position that I am in. This company's not a very people developer, unlikes my previous company...

2. My potential in the company-- With my current job scope, I don't see any potential corporate ladder that I might possibly climb in time to come

3. My personal ego-- I don't get a sense of fulfillment and I feel unappreciated. Not only that, I feel that I have a higher market value out there, doing something which I might enjoy better and getting a higher pay at the same time.

4. My health-- Staring into the screen the whole day long for at least 6 hours a day, is worsening my eyesight. My eyes feel more tired, strained and my dry eye syndrome is worsening...

5. My financial health-- My pay's crap... am not saying that I'm underpaid but it's just crap even if what I'm doing is only worth that much... And what's more, for what I'm doing, I can dare say, they can hire an intern and pay her/him $500 a month and get the exact same thing done. So why waste the company's money and at the same time, am NOT maximising my own potential right?

6. My emotional/ psychological state-- All the reasons mentioned above have at times made me doubt my own abilities, and have brought me emotional lows...

So CONCLUSION: This job is simply not worth it. As it is, I have already signed up with Asiaone career to look out for 'greener pastures'... This company can have it's cheaper labour somehow (I don't care how) after I leave and hopefully something better comes along for me... *keeping my fingers crossed*

Cccccccchhrrrrriiissssssssssssssssss.....

Tmas is coming! Yay! My favourite season of the year...

Yeah yeah, I've heard how people say that I'm crazy cause it's 2 months away... but so WHAT? I love the whether, I love the mood that we're getting into, I love the bright lights and the decor in shopping malls, shops etc! And I don't even need SNOW to feel christmassy! Hehehe...

Ok... forgive me if I sound insane... just that I've been waiting... and is still waiting for my colleagues to attend our very own magazine launch party at Good Wood Park hotel... Well, it ain't exactly a new magazine, just our old CNETAsia Week went under some revamp and now owns a classier, sassier look... Hehe... and we've got a new editor who took over that too... So I suppose it's only right that we have a debutante ball for it. Which explains why I'm here too... to pass some time... and cause I feel terribly bad that I've neglected this blog...

Anyway, something's terribly wrong with my desktop at home. I cannot log on to the Internet. When I called up SingNet, they tried to help me detect the problem by checking if my line's alright. After verifying that, they said they can't detect my modem... and that's about it.... Now I don't know what to do. The only other thing I can do is that I've upgraded my 256Kbps connection to a 512 one, and it comes with a free wireless modem and free installation. So will leave it to the installation guy to do the troubleshooting! heh...

Oh well, my system's really screwed up... Sigh... I need a new COMP!!!!