Pensive...

Woke up feeling so tired today! Feel like my eyes are blurry from the lack of sleep and I can't help but chide myself on why I do such things so!

At the same time, I did not feel like I was in the mood for work. After I settled some of the more urgent stuff, I started reading the blogs of some of the others.

Reading blogs brings a familiar sense of the motivation behind reading story books. I feel like I'm being transported into someone else's life. A strong vicarious sense of living the lives that the others lead. Lends inspirations to aspirations and dreams. However, more often than not, reality hits once the story ends and I feel like I back where I started, with a deep sense of struggle.

As the Chinese saying goes, "Tong ren bu tong ming." ---> If our lives are really determined by the elements and stars of our birth time, then I can only pray that may the elements and stars be at the right time and place in the next couple stages of my life.

I need the flame to grow into a stronger fire... I feel so tired...