Tuesday, December 27, 2005

My first of many things...

Christmas 2005... My first of many things happened...

For one, it was the first time I had to call an ambulance and admit someone into the hospital... My granny had a fit attack... but she's better now and her condition stablised....

This Christmas was also the day when it was the first time I got a bouquet of flowers from my mum for Christmas and my birthday mainly... Hee...

Bouquet of flowers for me from mummy...


This Christmas was also one, in the longest time, that I made something for most of my close friends....

Hanging mobile phone chains that I made for e AJ gang...


RT's Christmas presents that I made...


Karen's Earrings... for she's been looking for Red earrings for the longest time...


And this Christmas, is the first time that I received a diamond ring for my Christmas and birthday!! *Muaks baby*

I also experienced my first Christmas night spent in Zouk!

Somehow, this Christmas, made me realise how fortunate I am... am thankful for all my family and friends... for this season has brought me great joy...

I hope that the year ahead, I will always remember to count my blessings and be contented with all that I have...

Merry Christmas one and all... and a Happy New Year... :)

Friday, December 09, 2005

When I was young...

It's been a long time since I've had this much fun as I had tonight.

It wasn't wild wild, but it was the good company, plus the music over at Wala's...

Nothing beats spending sometime with people who enjoys music as much as you do... I've not done this for such a long time, that I almost forgot how it feels to lose yourself in the beat and the loud rhythm and tunes that fills your head and your soul. A drink or two to loosen yourself up... and you're on your way.

This sure reminds me of the days when I was younger... when I was able to let my hair down and enjoy myself. I know I should still be able to but somehow, I've haven't had the mood for the last few months.

All thanks to a dear friend Mark. Thanks dude! You've got great friends there... Also nice to have gotten to know Brandon who plays superbly well!! And also for the present which I've promised not to open till Christmas!

My present from Marky Boy...



Oh Yeah! Also appreciate the effort that you took to wrap my present so nicely! Truely!!!! :)
I can't remember when was it that a guy friend actually took the trouble to wrap a present so nicely for me! Hee...

Anyway, my day was made and you be sure that I'll be back for Unexpected soon!

Thursday, December 08, 2005

The light in the darkness...

Candle Light...


Fiddled around with my camera today and discovered new features that I knew existed but did not know how to utilise. Like the picture taken above, I was delighted when it came out clear because I've attempted to take shots of night lights and candle light without flash and those shots always come out blurry due to the slow shutter speed.

I kinda like this photo... because it reminds me of how there is light in the darkness... and sometimes, the light is never just white... nor yellow... nor orange... Circumstances and situtaions around makes it colorful. It kinda reminds me to be optimistic about the position that I am placed in currently.

While things are slowly picking up, and I'm slowly adapting to the new circumstances in every aspect, I can't help but feel impatient sometimes that the situation would get itself over and done with, and I'm back to my old cheery, easy-going and light-hearted self.

As stated on my MSN nick currently, "Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice", I can't help but think how difficult it is to make that choice and the follies that we make in that process. But I guess that's life... it's the roller-coaster rides that make us feel alive.

Well, wish me luck and strength and onward marching I go...

Monday, December 05, 2005

Optimism...

Is what I lack and is what I need...

Been feeling blue lately... Can't help feeling like a spoilt brate.

I know I need to persevere... I need to hang on and I need to go on...

Give me loads of encouragement please!

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Work work work!

Can't believe that I'm starting work in about less than 48 hours' time..

While on one hand, I'm trying to keep optimistic and look forward to the new work place, on the other, I can't help but feel slightly depressed that I'm going to start work soon... Heh, the irony of my human nature...

But seriously, time flies so quickly that even now Grace's wedding has come and gone. It wasn't so long ago that when she first announced their plans and we started getting real excited about everything. It seem like just yesterday that we had her bridal shower, and were doing up her wedding stuff.

Anyway, here are some of the pictures from her wedding! Hee...

Bird Cage in place of the traditional 'Ang Bao Box'...


The wrist corsage...


The group of us fooling around before the dinner...


Cutsy bears from the dinner...


Cutsy couple from the wedding...

Monday, November 21, 2005

Weddings, Weddings, Wedding...

Sleigh bells ring... Are you listening??

Oppsss.... I mean wedding bells...

Haha, this week has been alot about weddings... Gracie's Hen's night, Gracie's wedding preparations, hearing things about weddings everywhere... With Dannie's and Yilin's, Cindy and Chuang Syn's, Weiliang's, Elaine and Gary's, Catherine and Dennis', expecting Eileen and David's... and Dom and Charm's!!

Have also been asked to be Dom's and Charm's bridesmaid.... Hehehe... Am pleased and honored actually...

If you guys don't know yet... I love weddings! I love doing wedding decor... I guess I still want to be a wedding planner deep down inside me!!! I love it I love it I love it!

Spend some time today with Trish, doing up the bird cage for Grace! Hehehe... It's just so exciting... Yups! You read right... We're doing up a bird cage for Gracie in place of an 'Ang Bao Box'. We just spray painted it White today... However, as the stupid spray paint takes supposedly like 4 hours to dry, we intend to continue with the decorations tomorrow...

Am also looking forward to doing up all the corsages for Gracie's wedding... Have done up one prototype... It now holds the stamp of approval and I shall get to work on ALL of them soon.

Will post pictures of them up when they are ready! Most exciting this is! :)

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Taiwan...

Have been meaning to blog about my Taiwan trip... But I guess the plan deviated because of more important issues.

Yet now in retrospect, I seem to have lost the thoughts that I have planned to write down in the blog about the trip.

Overall, I would just say that the trip was a really good 7 days get away... gave me time to settle myself down and chill out before heading back to working life.

However, am really impressed with Taiwan's toilet cleanliness... Haha... I know that should be the last thing to talk about but no kidding when I saw most of the toilets that I visited neatly tiled and well maintained.

Anyway... moving on...

We had a Hen's night for Gracie yesterday. I was most proud of her for she was undeniably sporting and gave in to our whims and fancies. In fact, she provided us with a fun night of entertainment and I would like to thank her for it. She did everything we asked her to... from wearing the top that we did up for her... with words like "Quick grab me!", to doing a catwalk right in the middle of "Wild Rockets" where we were having our dinner, to getting strange guys' numbers, licking lychees out of Martinis, to serenading to a guy that we met at No. 5 over at Emerald Hill. Thanks to Kelvin as well, for having a part to play in the whole game... For making Gracie do a forfeit for everything question that he answered wrong! Hiakz hiakz...

Single and Available!!! (7 days left...)


Quick Grab Me!!!


Cornering Kelvin...


Evidence of Gracie's Sportsmanship...


She sure cheered me up a great deal... Thanks babe!

Oh well, heading off for dinner in a while... laterz! :)

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Living a Life...

Wonder what's wrong with my Hello S/W these couple of days.

Haven't been able to log on to upload some photos onto here... Guess I'll just wait patiently for it to start working again....

Anyway... moving on...

Spent a rather nice morning with Rach at Sentosa today. Yeah, actually moved my lazy butt and got out onto the sand, sun and the sea.

Made potato salad at 2am last night to bring along to Sentoda today. Baked some Pan Pacific Bratwurst sausages and together with Rach's bacon and cheese sandwiches, those pretty much made up our lunch.

Spent some time baking ourselves on the sand and I was rather perturbed by the fact that I don't seem to be able to get tanned! While Rach turned as red as a lobster in a matter of minutes.

We were enjoying ourselves, and the silence as we gave each other space to our own thoughts until this odd guy came along. He was walking up and down the beach, near to us, and another couple of girls.

His presence got kinda irritating as he was obviously checking us out. Reach a point when we couldn't take it anymore and decided to pack up and leave.

After a quick shower to wash off the sand, we went on for a drink and shared a Italian salad between the two of us! Haha.. that's what I call life... Got to really treasure the 2 weeks I have before I start work.

After which, we proceeded to Tiong Bahru and walked around, before heading to NTUC to grab some groceries and shop for dinner. Yeah, I was supposed to make dinner... Decided to settle for spaghetti (Angel's hair, tomato puree, minced pork, sausages... It was only later while I was cooking that I realised I left out my favourite SHRROOOOMMMSS!!!!)

Spent the rest of the evening chilling out at Rach's place playing mahjong and watching Hong Kong drama serials...

Really felt like a Tai Tai today... However, I can just imagine that if I were to do this everyday for the rest of my life... or for 1 whole week, I'll go berserk!

But in the mean time, I'll just lick up all the delicious treats that I have for now... and enjoy every single taste of it. .. :D

Friday, November 18, 2005

Some things I got to do...

Attended Ken's church service today...

Sunset captured on the plane back to Singapore from Taipei...


It was really heart breaking and really sad... I couldn't stop my tears from flowing when Ken's friends were giving testimonies about him...

A spark in the lives of people who knew him... Always so cheerful, and popular because he's so approachable and easy going.

Images of him kept appearing in my mind during the service and I felt truly saddened. I'm going to miss him...

Doesn't help that he's the only son, only child, and my heart ached for his mum, Aunt Helen. Through the service, I found out that the 3 most important men in her life, all passed away due to heart attack. How much tougher can it get for a woman... I cannot imagine.

Found out so many things about him today. How he's actually so involved in church... his involvement with the kids... How highly his friends thought of him... I was very surprised that his funeral service was so crowded. He's truly Mr Nice.

Realised that there are actually so many things that I don't know about him. Would have loved to know those things about him... and be a friend, instead of one who solely interacts with him on a work basis.

Makes me realise that there are so many people around me that I should treasure more. That I should take more effort in understanding and finding more from.

This is something that I have to do...

Thursday, November 17, 2005

In loving memory of Kenneth...

Two days back, I received a most shocking piece of news...

A very dear work associate passed away in KL. And I was in Taiwan...

I couldn't believe my eyes when I read the SMS sent to me by one of my ex-colleagues...

I can't believe that all I have left are memories of a very very nice guy... Kenneth...



Sheri, Ken and Des...

I will always remember how you have always been so nice to me...
I will always remember how you have always been there to solve my problems for me...
I will always remember how you always play the songs I like during set-ups...
Most of all, I will always remember how concerned you were everytime I am feeling discouraged or stressed out...
You were a comfort to me and a pillar of support everytime you run my shows...
It's too late but from the bottom of my heart, thank you...

Friday, November 04, 2005

New Beginnings... Again!??!

Woooowwwwwww...

The last time I touched this blog was eons ago... and no, it's not that I've lost interest in documenting my life... or at least part and parcel of it, but it's more of the fact that I got lost in life for a little while there...

Gained loves, lost loves... old job, new job... old colleagues, going to be new colleagues... So many things to look forward to.

I can't help but tell myself that it's time to let go of all unhappiness and move on in life again.

It's my last day at work today!!! Can't help feeling like "I believe I can fly......"

I'll be baaaaaaaaaaaaacccccccckkkkkkkk..........................

Monday, September 26, 2005

Real girlie...

Was real girlie today...

What meant to be set aside as a planned for work day... was spent as a shopping spree day.

Met up impromptu-ly with Rach and Raq today for a shopping spree. Well, not that I planned for it to be a spree but thought I'll just go out with them as Raq wanted to go Chinatown to get some souvenirs for her colleagues back in U.S. And as usual, when 3 girls go out shopping together, it's inevitable that one influences the other and so on and so forth and we end up with bags full of suits, skirts and blouses.

Other than Raq who ended up with weird stuff that I wouldn't usually buy, such as Merlion fruit picks, chinese embroidery tissue boxes cover and chinese embroidered cushion covers.

ARGH! Can't believe I spent so much this month!

I bought a pinkish purplish suit, a pink top, a purple skirt and a blue skirt. Spent a total of $129!!!! Apart from the many other things that I spent on this month...

Can't believe I am such a spend thrift this month!!!

Time to zip shut my wallet next month... especially crucial... keeping in mind the impending plans I have...

Oh well, now, no more going on a guilt trip on how I didn't do my work this weekend and how I spent so much... Guess it's time for bed. Will finish up my work tomorrow...

Nitez...

Friday, September 23, 2005

Lethargy...

Been feeling tired lately.

Somewhat lost the zest (at work) somehow.

Does anyone wonder why my entries have been pretty depressing the last couple of months?

No?

Cuz I do...

Just finished an event yesterday. Wasn't mainly mine, but was helping out a colleague to run the program.

I would say that the event turned out to be successful despite the major screw-ups that occured before the event. However, I think my colleague did a good job of handling some of the issues whilst the rest of us tried to help him out in some ways or other.

In anycase, went back late, woke up early to go for event venue tear down. Phone started ringing and was bugged by office with questions about this and that and this and that.

By the time I reached office, I received a series of instructions from my boss (who's in vietnam) via e-mail.

Realised that I've got to grapple and handle 5 projects.

Sheesh...

Where do I start?

Am so tired... What's my motivation?

I wonder...

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Yet another success...

This is the reason why it's a love-hate relationship with my job.

There are so many reasons why I find this job worthwhile, especially it with the ability to give me a sense of achievement in many ways not just one.

As with every other project, not all credit should go to the project manager, but being the overall-in-charge for the project sure boosts one's ego.

Yeah yeah, I know that this blog is probably 1 week late, with the event being held on the 8th of September, but I've been busy chilling out. I desperately needed that...

Anyway, a couple of pictures before I go on...

Part of the results of 18 hours of hardwork...


And yes, I had the opportunity to get accquainted with Lisa... a real warm and friendly lady! Think I'm the envy of most of my guy friends now...

Friendly Lisa!


It's only coming 5 months since I've been here but it sure feels like it has been eons. Sometimes I feel so sure that this is what I want... and yet, my mind falters at times. Not to mention that the work "environment" doesn't help to firm up my opinions of my job...

Sometimes, I look at my friends, and seeing how they are going places... or how they are starting off on a perfectly fine footing, I ask myself if there's anything wrong with me. Or I can't help asking myself what went wrong along the way.

I can't help feeling envious sometimes... I'm only human.

I need to make up my mind... Can't help feeling lost...


P.S. I got my belly-ring back!! Won't call it impulse but decided to go for a 2nd try. Raq went with me and she looked so digusted as she saw how James did it and how my blood was happily free-flowingly oozing out of the new piercing! Hahaha... Hopefully it will not get infected too badly this time! :)
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Entry: So sad...)

Monday, September 12, 2005

Life doesn't hurt...

It's the people in life who makes it hurt...

I don't know why but this phrase keeps repeating itself in my head. I guess it's because of what's been happening at work...

S tendered today... I guess it's a good and bad thing. I believe she'll be able to do ok out there... And I'm actually happy for her that she finally made this decision. It's high time for her to move on...

On the other hand, now that she's not going to be around much... I'm getting worried too... Worried because there is no one around to handle production issues. No one is experienced enough over here...

Oh well...

On a brighter note, my weekend was good! On Saturday evening, I had a big surprise. At least it was meant to be a surprise. Raq came back from US! She was so sneaky about it that she claimed she told no one. However, the rest of the guys found out earlier than me cuz she did what she had to do the minute she reached Singapore. Visited Marcus for her grooming session at Cyn's salon... Haha...

I kinda suspected that something fishy was going on when Rach insisted on meeting despite me saying that I already have a dinner appointment. Wasn't her usual style... She would usually just let it go and say something along the lines of "Ok loh, then we shall meet another day". But on Saturday, she was going on and on like..."9pm? 9.30pm? What time can you make it?".

Hehe... And not to mention that on Sat itself, I was over at Glitz... And Cynthia and Marcus were behaving fishily too... lol... but was good seeing Raq. I saw her standing there, in the distance, trying to make a phone call to find out which table we were seated at. Kinda funny...

She'll be back for slightly less than a month to try to settle her Visa... gonna try to find some time to spend with her... got so much to tell her... :)

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Whimps and Fancies...

Feels like I've been giving in to the whimps and fancies of so many people lately that I wonder who else other than baby will give in to mine.

Life's been a constant rollercoaster. While I would like to view it as challenges which I can conquer and feel great after, it's getting really tiring. I like the human aspects of life. Interacting with people, getting to know one better. Recently, in the course of work, I've come to meet Lisa from CNA. She's really warm in real life, unlike the poised and 'cool' lady that I thought her to be due to the image that I see on screen. AND I can't believe that she's so 'giggly'... but then again she justified it by saying that she's not being herself as she's almost in a state of delirium due to the long filming hours.

But this project has definitely been a headache... many last minute changes that I've got to grapple with. Feel so stuck amongst the many parties that I've got to lias with. Clients, suppliers, contractors and the hotel. BiGgGgGgGg Headache!!!

Event's tomorrow... slowly counting down to the end of the event. In the meantime, sorting out the mess the DAY BEFORE THE EVENT is not funny....

Friday, September 02, 2005

MOoD SwiNgS...

Feels like I'm back in secondary school... or primary for that matter...

Can't help having mood swings... MoOooOooOoOOoOOoOOoOody.......

Sometimes I feel like I'm stuck in a dilemma... time to move on to different places... yet I can't...

I guess I can... I guess everything's a choice I make... but reality is that my world does not only belong to me. What happens to me affects so many other people around me.

On a brighter note, work seems to be getting slightly better for now. Currently I'm only handling 1 major project... Compared to before... it's nothing... But nothing better go wrong for this event!

OH well... the ups and downs of life...

Monday, August 29, 2005

My Name test....

My name test states that....

"Charming, poised and sociable you need peace and harmony around you and always seek to create a happy environment. Perceptive and with strong intuition you are able to make sound judgements. You show great flexibility in attitude being open and responsive to the needs and opinions of others. This ability gives you potential for success in business dealing with the public. Your warm personality and caring ways ensure you are loved by family and friends."


Hee... Accurate? Accurate?

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Failed...

The last couple of weeks have been most eventful.

So many events going on at work... on top of most eventful happenings in office... Work related of course.

However, nothing beats the fact that I tried to resign, but failed. I guess I could always leave if I want to but I'm too soft... and everyone's telling me that...

ARgGgGGg.... I hate it that I'm this soft!!!!!! Why can't I be like Aunty Lena who has no qualms about telling people off... who has no qualms to fight for her rights...

Or why can't I be warned that if this happens too often, I'll be taken advantage of... and get bullied time and time again?

I believe the world can be a better place to live in...

What should I do?

Thursday, August 11, 2005

To Hong Kong and Back...

Yups, that was the most eventful thing that happened last weekend.

Went on a company trip on Friday and came back on Monday... Time flew by so quickly that it feels surreal.

Thought I would have shopped alot but surprisingly, my buys are minimal. Unlike my colleague who was happily spending all her money away, and would have been stranded in HongKong for the lack of money for transport or the airport tax (which we later found out that was already included in the cost of the air tickets.)

Though I bought few things, I bought a pair of shoes which cost like SGD$100. I surprised myself as usually I wouldn't even have thought of spending that type of money here in Singapore. Guess being on holiday makes all the difference...

The trip was kinda spinky and spunky I guess... There were scandals as well as loads of drinks and laughter. It was really a good opportunity for my colleagues to hang loose and chill out I guess. Lovers of drinks and smoke... Oh well...

Kinda sad cuz I totally forgot all about bringing my digital camera over. Could not be the usual trigger happy me... Sigh... missed taking shots of all types... Would have caught so many things in pictures...

WHAT A WASTE.

Oh well, it's back to work proper for now. Not that I wasn't working in Hong Kong. I was kinda... it's a company trip after all... But now it's back to 24hrs...

Till the next time... :)

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Words of wisdom from my baby cousin...

Hehe... I can't believe this... even my baby cousin's giving me sound advice?

TiMe To MoVe On~!~!~ says:
ogei ogei.. haha... will do... still need to work?? how u 24h on duty one ah??
*~Zen Alexia Lee - That's Me~* says:
i dunno
*~Zen Alexia Lee - That's Me~* says:
feel quite lousy lor
TiMe To MoVe On~!~!~ says:
hmm... u cant work well if u are unhappy right?
*~Zen Alexia Lee - That's Me~* says:
yeah
*~Zen Alexia Lee - That's Me~* says:
i know
TiMe To MoVe On~!~!~ says:
then~!?


Oh well... THEN?

The Big and Little things in life...

Heyo... it's been a while.. again...

This phrase's getting really common... And I can't help griping about why it's so...

It's all about work... What else? However, I realised that after a while, there's no point. It's either I do something about it, or live with it.

But human nature is such that it's almost difficult to ignore that issues that nags and tugs at your heart...

It's so confusing. While I love my job, I hate it at the same time. Kinda ironic but it's not the job that I hate... it's part of the job... or it's someone... I don't know... But then again, it's not like this is something that you can pin-point and say that... yeah it's only THAT and THAT.

But I do miss the little things in life... I miss my friends... I miss having time to myself, I even miss my parents who are living under the same roof as me. Even now, when adding a blog entry at 1am in the morning, I feel like I'm eating into time that I can spend on work...

Some say it's a matter of what I want. Somehow, working here makes me feel lousy half the time... I feel that I'm not living up to what is expected of me. But I can't help it... I can't keep focused when there are like a thousand and one different things that expected out of me.

I remember when I first started sussing out this job, I was told that the company encourages fitting people into positions which maximises their forte. However, in reality, I feel like I'm being forced-fit into positions that I'm not capable of handling... And it makes me feel stupid.

It's true that I can learn... but learning takes time. And I do believe that there are somethings that are innate. Either you have it or you don't. And if you don't... You need time... And time is something which we are not given here... and that sucks. Makes me wonder if it's the same everywhere else...

Anyway, on a brighter note, I attended Cat's ROM on Saturday... And it was really pretty. Found time to admire the little things like the flower decor which I loved... the little things in life...

Flowers Galore...


More flowers...


Pretty Chairs...


The inspiration for the ring Pillow...


The Ring Pillow...


It's the little details which makes all the difference don't you think?

It's the little things in life that I'm missing out on that makes all the difference.

What's next?

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

The Rollercoaster Ride

It's been a while... AGAIN...

Somehow it seems as if my life is only and all about work. My stress is about work, my worries is about work... my ups and downs revolve all around work.

It sure is a rollercoaster ride.

I'm trying to be strong... I'm trying to get stronger... and the ride's not easy.

It doesn't help that in the midst of all these struggles, I'm missing the little things in life.

I miss having free time doing nothing. I miss having the time to laze in bed and reading a book. I miss going shopping even if it's window-shopping. I miss spending time chilling out and catching up with friends. I miss being able to stay out late at nights without having to think about work, or feel guilty about it. I miss waking up late on Sunday morning, feeling carefree, without a worry... I miss...... so many things.

I feel kinda sad, kinda down. It might be a mental conditioning... and I'm trying very hard to pick myself up, to put in the best I can.

Everyone's vote of confidence in me helps... It's encouraging, but then again, their vote of confidence brings my own expectation of myself up as well. I guess I got to be easy on myself. Makes life easier...

Now it's back to work. Till the next time... we shall meet... Soon I hope...

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Responsibility...

Why oh why is there such a word... such a meaning...

I hate it when it's the sense of responsibility that keeps me going. It's so tiring...

I had a set-up at 12 midnight last night... Spent the entire day in office working non-stop, rushing things here and there... and it doesn't help when your clients are not helping in providing information... It's a vicious cycle... Info to you gets delayed, info to your suppliers get further delayed, and the whole entire event runs the chance of being screwed up.

Thank goodness nothing major went wrong today. But I'm so freaking tired... I ended set-up at 3am, reached home, had to work with my designer on another on-going project. Slept at 3.30am, woke up at 7am realising that I'm late... Was supposed to be back at events ground to ensure that everything is running smoothly at 7am...

I can't describe how I feel... I'm in for hardwork, but this is extreme? I haven't had a good rest since THE challenge, been working weekends... even if I don't have to come back office, I had to work on my laptop at home. Even when I'm out with my friends having dinner, I've to drop by MacDonald's to do periodic checks on neccessary stuff for my projects.

Is this worth it?

My mum and my aunts sure don't think so. My mum made a comment which made me think... "We did not bring you up to torture yourself and to live life this way. You cannot sell your soul and your self to work."

It hits right there. Even my mum feels so strongly. Never has she felt so strongly this way. I wouldn't say that she doesn't agree with my job, but I think she feels that it's too extreme. Imagine one week, I clocked 96 working hours. And it's never been less than 55 hours a week.

My aunt was just saying that it is ILLEGAL to have such long working hours... and she was telling me that she's going to dig up all the information, legal papers and all to show me... and in return I'm suppose to negotiate with my boss about it.

See what I mean?

I'm not blind... and I'm not stupid... I did ask myself if this is worth it. It's definitely testing my limits... I feel overstretched... overworked... so tired...

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Caught in a stationary time-zone...

Hi... it's been a while huh...

Sheesh... It's been a terrible week for me... It's not just up and down... it's up, down, 360 degree loops, 90 degree turns... and the feeling's been undescribable.

I couldn't believe what I got myself into (work wise) for the last two weeks. I thought wireless city was bad... when I had to handle the entire project by myself... but the last week was worse!

Not funny when you have to handle 7 projects, have millions of people (ok not millions.. but even tens is bad enough) calling you every other minute, chasing for this or that... and every request has to be done by TODAY, by a certain time (not date), by NOW, or end of today... That freaking sucks.

Imagine not going home for the last 48 hours...

I know I'm starting to gripe... And it sure seems as if I'm griping everytime I'm in a job... but it's so stressful. Yet again, I'm doubting my capabilities. It's definitely not easy being an events coordinator. Perhaps especially in my company.

It's not only about coordinating and managing time-line, schedules, people- clients, suppliers, workers, colleagues, liasion... I've got to manage design and creative work! And that's like SO NOT my forte... I can't do it... I suppose I will as time goes by, and as with experience... but it's so tough now as I'm asked and required to do it NOW! And I feel so helpless...

The only thing that's keeping me going now is the shimmering ray of hope... that new people are coming in soon. It's mentally stressful and physically exhausting to be managing 7 projects and with clients who constantly think that you're servicing them alone only... and they expect you to be in front of the computer all the time, waiting for their mails, for their instructions. It's work when I'm getting F***** for things that I do not believe it's my fault, but it's under my responsibility because I'm the account person.

I've got loads to learn... I do. Hopefully things will get better!

Monday, June 13, 2005

YAY! It's over and it's a success!

Heh, my event's OVER!!! Time to take loads and loads of rest!

I can't imagine how I've survived the last 3 weeks running this event alone. Thank goodness for the many, many reliable part-timers that I've been working with. Not to mention some back-end support from my colleagues who ran a couple of errands here and there for my sake. God's showering his blessings on me...

Anyway, I would call this event a success because... there were no major screw-ups and people seemed to have enjoyed themselves taking part in this event.

Heheh, despite the stress (one person running the entire 3 weeks event, and the major major race), lack of sleep (only slept 6 hours in total over 2 nights and 3 days... for 2 weekends), lack of food (was only surviving on one meal a day, none on the day of the finals), I had my fair share of fun...

Cynthia and Randall really can make people laugh... They were so funny and hyped-up! Best of all, they were very good fun, and I believed that they contributed to much of the finalists' enjoyment of the event.


Cynthia Lee, Zen Lee and Randall Tan



The event also apparently appeared on Channel U, Channel 8 and CNA news. It was kind of part of the coverage for Singapore Street Festival. Can't help feeling proud and beaming from within...

The finalists and P10 DeeJays


The race is over... but there are still MANY things to be done. Let me rest... and I'll move on soon... :D

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Two weeks into event and baby's running...

Or so I would think...

Wireless City Challenge


So far things are going well... Yes it's been two weeks! I've died, revived and survived... My baby's running but I hope there's nothing to make it fall on Sunday...

Response for the event got better and better until the point where we have no more empty slots for people to register for the race... and entries are still coming in!

I can't help feeling kinda proud that this is my baby! So many things I've done... started out on my own... joined later by my part-timers. So much sweat I've dripped... *exhilarated sigh*...

I've come to meet so many people, I've come to work with so many people... I love it!

Praying hard I am... that everything will go well on the GRAND finals... Apparently there will be coverage of the event on Channel 8 news @ 10pm on Sunday, 19th June. Be with me all... wish me well. I've finally seem to have found somewhere where I belong...

Sunday, May 29, 2005

I love it...

and hate it...

I got to play with the DJ console today! Put on some of my fav pieces and blasted it out loud along Orchard Road. Somehow there's some kinda kick! Kinda cool... love it...

However, it's really tough mangaging a road show all by yourself. You got to take care of logistics, tentage powersupply etc.. you got to manage your part-timers and manpower... you got to make sure that the publicity efforts not going to waste, you got to pick up rubbish.. you got to clean up and wash your roller bladers' uniform...

Sigh... How did I get into this?

It's a love-hate relationship really... Sigh...

But the kicks are really kind of cool? Like how I'm actually sitting along Orchard road in my tentage and typing out this post. There's actually ADSL line in the booth... hehe...

Okies.. GTG... DeeJay's on lunch break and music's not cool... Gonna fool around with the console some more... :)

Saturday, May 28, 2005

Mad rush.. but Baby's walking...

It's been a mad rush this week... to get my baby up and walking...

Baby = my event!

It's finally starting tomorrow... phase 1... "recruitment drive"... hehee

Check out the website!

http://www.singaporestreetfestival.com/singtel/

I realised that through all these, I really do need to take time to breathe... so as not to get suffocated. I guess it's not only a matter of prioritizing, but also a matter of taking care of myself so that I remain sane to deal with the many other issues that will come my way...

Thank God that it's been manageable so far... Plentiful of last minutes hiccups... but nothing serious so far... keeping my fingers crossed and hopefully I'll remain in grace.

:)

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Mystery of the zen hex...

Saw Jan doing this quiz on her blog... decided to give it a shot.

Take the quiz: "What Star Wars Character Are You?"


Obi-Wan Kenobi
You are a level headed person who uses the Force to compliment your natural talent

That's ME!

Heh....

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

An URGH tuesday...

I hate beginning the week feeling Urgh!!

I guess it's because of the long week end... 3 days of lazing around, having much fun, is not exactly the best thing to have when you are facing a stressed week of work ahead... Just makes me feel like 'holidaying' more...

Time is so short yet there's so much to do. There so much to do yet everything's stuck at a bottle neck of protocols... So stupid.



Anyway, I did have a wonderful weekend. Let me do a chronological accounting:

Friday - Met ex-colleagues like Boony and Wins for dinner at Holland V Crystal Jade "La Mian Xiao Long Bao"... food was good... Afterwhich, we proceeded on to Dempsey Road for wine and cheese... The meet up was good. It was kinda like a farewell for Boony. Can't imagine he's actually leaving on a BLOGGING trip for 3 months for National Geography! It's as much of a dream job as any prolific writer would want to! *Envious* After that went to watch StarWars III with Rob and friends... Wasn't as good as I thought it would be...

Saturday - Slept in, went town with Rob and walked around. Met Dom and Charm for buffet dinner after which, Karaoke. Blatantly refused to do any work.

Sunday - Went to town (again) to do my filming for my clues. Ed couldn't make it so got Rob to come with me. We spent more than half a day (10am - 4pm) walking from Far East plaza, all the way down town to Esplanade. Was so tired that my bones and body were aching! Met Lance, Chek and Duh for a drink at Liquid Kitchen. Quite a cosy and nice chill out place for a 'neighbourhood' area...

Monday - Spent the morning @ East Coast with my family. Went blading and fell real bad when coming down a slope. Hurt my elbow and hip. Went sliding across the road in a 'super-woman' fashion! *So embarassing* Haha... First real scar from blading I guess. After which, visited my new niece! She's so cute... but too bad couldn't carry her cuz I was grimy and sweaty *though I tried to clean up* from being at East Coast. Reached home by 6pm, rested for a while and went for dinner at almost 9pm. Had Chilli CRAB! Blatantly refused to do work *again*!

And now I'm at work in office on Tuesday, wishing life could go on like the weekend that just went by... Sigh...

Don't know what's wrong. Don't know what I want.

But I do know that one can't ask for more... when I have someone like Rob. *Love you Baby*

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Singapore Street Festival

Something's exciting is coming up...

And why it's exciting? Cuz it's an event organised by me!

And no laaaaaaa... it's not Singapore Street Festival. But rather it's an event in conjunction with it.

More details to come later on...

Anyway, have been playing with 3G phones, and Merlin Mobile Broadband access Wireless card... it's waaaaay cool...

But of course cool things come with a price!

Anyway, work's been a madhouse as usual... but am not depressed yet... hope emotions keep up this way...

Laterz!

Monday, May 16, 2005

I need a breather... HoooHeeeHoooHee...

Work's mad... crazy...

I've got so many things to do that I can't help feeling that everything that I do, I overlook many other aspects. And the scary thing is that, there is nobody who is overseeing what I do constantly, only when my boss does a review of what I've planned so far. And usually when he sees some things missing and he highlights them to me, I go into a mad frenzy and rush to get things going. It's crazy...

My previous event went relatively well I would say, for a 1st event. There were hiccups but I would say that half the time, it's not my fault because those were things established and set before I took over the planning and there were no revisions mentioned for those issues. And I did not know what transpired before hand.

However, I'm also aware that such things happen ALL the time and even if I single-handedly did the event, there will be such screw-ups. When that happens, I must be prepared to shoulder the responsibility for the screw-up. And I know that when that time comes, I can't help but feel personal about it. Oh well...

A little wary of this major event that I'm handling now. I hope things will go well. It's definitely a steep learning curve for me over here. I would say that I've learnt quite a bit. However, the question still rings loud in my head. Is the experience worth it? I do feel like I'm selling my body and soul to my boss (job) 24/7 so far. And for the meagre pay some more.

Worried that I'm getting into a habit of job-hopping... Can't let that happen. Nope...

Saturday, May 14, 2005

NO time...

On my plate: A damn tedious proposal by monday, recce-ing of the entire stretch of Orchard to Suntech and Esplanade this weekend for work... *sweat*

Highlights of the week:

- 4 hours of sleep every night since Monday
- A pair of URS shoes...
- A working relationship and a picture taken with Vernetta Lopez... *grinz*

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Madhouse...

I got the R51... Heh...

But ever since I got my laptop, it's been a MADHOUSE! Have not left office earlier than 9 for the last few days, have not slept earlier than 3am the last few days and it was 5am when I slept last night.

Work's CRAZY!

It IS!

Turn around time for proposals here is like 2 days... regardless of whether you got on going events. And that's what is happening to me! I went for a briefing from a client today, am heading another event for tomorrow... so it was crazy for me the last few days organising this event and I have to submit the 'new' proposal on Friday!

And it's not just brain work that I've got to do. I have got to go recce-ing places, take pictures, arrange proposal, make amendments! Argh!!!

Got to go! Got to go! Taaaaaaaa......

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Happy Mothers' Day!

Heheh... especially to my cousin!

She sent me an sms early this morning at 5.30am, saying that she has given birth to a healthy baby girl weighing 3KG at 5.00am! How much happier can a mother get?!

Haha, got my mum to buy 4D numbers.... 0805, 0855, 8555 (time, date, month, year)! Nice number huh!

Anyway, I can't believe it! I think I'm turning into an insomniac. I couldn't sleep after receiving my cousin's sms and all my work plans and things that I got to do kept running through my head! Argh! No! I don't wanna be a workaholic or an insomniac because of work! Eeks!

Anyway, yay! Am going to get my new work station tomorrow! Finally! My boss ordered two new laptops for my 'manager' and me... It's about time, especially when I already have 3 projects under me and tonnes of liasing to do!

Would it be this?

IBM x40


or this?

IBM R51


No matter what, new laptop! Yippee!

Friday, May 06, 2005

ZzzZzz...

Time's been flying passed so quickly since I start work.

Work's exciting, hectic, challenging, tiring all at once. While I try to remain optimistic, I can't help feel a littl distressed as things are in a real mess!

While I have projects on hand to handle, things to coordinate, I don't even have a proper work station to use! And many other things... that's the extent of it.

Many people at work look drained, feel drained and I can't help feeling the same way. I mean I don't understand why I feel so tired when I've barely started handling projects and stuff and when I'm only 4 days into the job.

I keep having this image of a whirl-wind pool, and everyone that comes near it, just gets sucked into it. Just like how everyone's just so sucked in the work that everyone's energy zapped. And I seriously think the company needs to consider WELFARE. Oh well...

NO! I don't want to repeat the 1 week at a new job stunt! Haha... Hopefully I don't have to... sigh...

Well, have a baby to work on now... a 'huge' project (in my opinion)... Hopefully that one won't give me too much trouble!

Going to ZzzZ now... I'm bushed..

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

One word...

ZONKED...

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

So far so good....

Today's the first day at work! So far so good... Phew!

Even though I came home at about 9ish, even later than my 'other' first day at work a few weeks back... everything that happened at work seems exciting and fun so far! Note... SO FAR.... Already have a couple of events on my plate but those events are planned for already, 80%... I've only got to do the execution...

Anyway, looking forward to the rest to come for now! hehe...

The weekend has also been fun. Rob recovered from his food poisoning pretty well, which was good. Because... if he didn't, I would have turned into a big fat grouchy monster because I was so darn bored cooped up at home! Yeah.. felt guilty for feeling that way but it was afterall my last weekend before I'm tied down for all my weekends henceforth... Oh well...

Heheh... Robbie bought new toys when we made a trip down to Sim Lim. It started with a Casio Exilim Z50...



Hehe... Which of course landed up with me for now... because it's a new toy!

And the very next day, he went down to buy a View Sonic 19-inch LCD monitor for his room...



So he's one big happy baby now... Hehe...

I'm so tired... Got to go get some planning done for some of the stuff... Will update again! :)

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Hail Restlessness...

And this exemplifies my restlessness...




Your Birthdate: December 26

Your birth on the 26th day of the month (8 energy) modifies your life by increasing your capability to function and succeed in the business world.

In this environment you have the skills to work very well with others thanks to the 2 and 6 energies combining in this date.

There is a marked increase in organizational, managerial, and administrative abilities.

You are efficient and handle money very well.

You're ambitious and energetic, while generally remaining cooperative and adaptable.

You are conscientious and not afraid of responsibility.

Generally sociable and diplomatic, you tend to use persuasion rather than force.

You have a wonderful combination of being good at both the broad strokes and the fine detail; good at starting and continuing. This birthday is practical and realistic, often seeking material satisfaction.

Heh, yups... I did one of those quizzes...

Well, not that I do not do quizzes at all.... But firstly, this hardly counts as a quiz cuz I din have to answer any qustions and secondly, I hardly do them. Perhaps I should do more...

Anyway, that brings me back to my restlessness. I guess it's coming to the peak of non-activity for too long and I"m restless beyond words. I've been cooped up at home for too long! Aside from the last couple of blog entries going on and on about how bored I am, I really am BORED!

Guess what I just did...

At 3.00am in the morning on a fateful early Sunday morn... I boiled a corn in water, and had it in the good old school way, with butter and salt! Well, HELLO to high blood pressure and fats! I'm not even hungry... Just bored... looking for things to do, and munch... Not to mention that sleeping so much today made it difficult to sleep now...

While cooking my corn, I brought out my favourite childhood story book (yeah, I still keep them... good old Enid Blytons...) and started reading... "The children of Cherry Tree Farm". Tell me how bored I am...

But hey! I like reading Enid Blyton.. Anytime. Even now.. at my age.. I love fairytales. So many times, I've wanted to just sit my ass in Popular bookshop and feast through the galore of Enid Blyton books there. There's so many more books to the collection now... and so many that I've not read before. But those were the good old says... Mr Mischief, Famous Five, Faraway tree, Mr Pink Whistle, Nancy Drew and Hardy Boys, Amelia Jane, Naughtiest Girl in School and so many more!!

Heh, speaking of which, I've just added a whole chunk of links to other bloggers' blogs... Found them interesting while surfing other blogs and decided to link them up just for my convenience... hehe..

Alrightey, am going to read a little more of Cherry Tree Farm till I feel sleepy... This can't go on... My biological clock's going haywire... I need to sleep early... I'm starting work next week!

Saturday, April 30, 2005

Splitting headache...

Ever experienced having a splitting headache from sleeping too much?

Well, have not only experienced it but am having it now!! Argh...

Poor babes got food poisoning and spent the whole of today sleeping away. With no plans made thinking that I was going to spend today with him, I spent half my day accompanying Rob sleeping away too... And the result of that... a splitting headache... *groan*

Gonna do something about it... laterz! Ta...

Thursday, April 28, 2005

Bored...

I'm bored out of my mind!! Brumph!.



I can't wait to start work!

Feels like there's so much to do, yet I'm just wasting time... Haha...

Went over to Mic & Joni's place yesterday to watch "Shutter". Well, the boys did. Not me...Don't think I missed out much.. hur hur... Cindy and I both stayed in the the room and did some female bonding. Talked alot and felt kinda good knowing my guy's friends better... Charm came later with Dom, bringing us loads of tidbits and chips!

Mic's place was REALLY nice. Really cosy and I liked the platform concept in the living room, with bean bags and a really cool projector TV. Not to mention, it's way cooler when you use a projector to play games on the xbox...

Would love to go over again sometime. Probably when Mic and Joni shifts in after their customary wedding...

Everyone's moving on in life... I just can't wait to move on in mine too!

Starting with a brand new job! :)

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Elated...

I can't stop smiling just thinking that I'm going to start work AGAIN next week!

The feeling I get this time round is a much better one then before... Met up with my new boss today and confirmed the offer. He seems to be keen to get me started, and he brought me down for my very first business briefing for a new project for next month.

I'm due to join the company on the 3rd of May! :)

Did my first amateur proposal today for this afternoon's briefing... Ain't too optimistic about it cuz I'm never one for original creativity. My creativity stems from improvision... Hehehe... Can that even be called creativity?

Oh well... but I'm Elated!



Highlight of the week: A new job offer... :)

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

The Journey of Love...

Attended a really sweet ROM on Sunday... the couple having been together since JC, is finally tying the knot and everyone was just so happy for them...

At the Harbour...


Flying high...


The newly-weds...


Precious Moments Love Boat...


The ROM ceremony...


The sweetest kiss...

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Uninspired...

is NOT what I am right now. For what I've been, is Inspired...

BUT, my inspiration has been washed off with a splash of technology failure.

Wrote a really thought provoked entry a couple of days back, after having not updated my blog for a while... and took every single effort to find the right words to perfectly describe my thoughts, my emotions... before my stupid firefox browser hung on me.

Have you ever experienced how it feels like to have bought a brand new scoop of ice-cream on a cone, only to have the scoop of ice-cream drop off the cone even before you could have a lick at it?

Yups.. you got it.

Anyway, that incident pissed me off for days and that is explains my MIA from here... Haha..

Now I'm back but there's no way I could reproduce what I wrote that day. No wish to mention it too... the feeling's lost.. no point bringing it back...

For all that's worth, here's updates. Haha...

This week (plus the last weekend) has been most eventful... It was filled with BBQs, family dinner, meet ups with friends, and creating new cards... Met up with the CNETters today.. and got myself a free movie and dinner. Felt really good... (the company.. not de freebies)... makes me wonder how come it couldn't have been like that when things were still beautiful and nice... Hahah.. now I know what they mean when they say that ties get tighter through tough times...

Other than the materialistic stuff, I've just been so overwhelmed with my friends... with their love lives, problems, mess... I don't understand how people can just lose themselves so badly in love. Perhaps I'm anchored to reality due to the family upbringing and (conservative) culture that had been inculcated in me... But people just go BRAINLESS when they're in love.

Oh wells... am in no mood for details like that. For one, I got to go meet an ex-bf of one of my friends to try to clean up some mess... Don't ask me why but I feel like it's just something that I got to do even though I'm not too keen on it...

Anyway, tomorrow might also be a day that bring good tidings. So... Will update more later on!

Till then, this entry better not be lost!

P.S. Somehow, the recover post option did not work for me... am I unlucky or what...bleah...

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Plateau...

Seems like I've reached a plateau...

While waiting, rotting, lazing... Hehehhe

Finished reading two books, "Peacocks Dancing" and "The Bartimaeus Trilogy". Both are nothing near the previous two books but I guess they served me well... occupied some of my time... and entertained me.. Hehee...

Anyway, been wanting to send out resumes... but the inertia in me is too strong to resist.... Hehee... Sigh.. got to BUCK up!

Highlights of the week: 2 mahjong games, Phish Food, Sunshine, a Card and my hand-made rose and leaf embroidery!

SunShine


(Haahha... Yups! I started some little embroidery practicing and I'm really pleased with what I came up with! Poof!)

Friday, April 08, 2005

Doors of opportunities...

Some good news might be in the midst of brewing now. I might be looking at another job opportunity in another 3 hours' time. Thanks to an ex-colleague of mine, Ed...

Am keeping my fingers crossed... hoping that this will work out to something that will be suitable for me... While I'm optimistic again, I'm trying not to get my hopes too high.. Afterall, I thought I was in the midst of recovery... Haha, from the trauma of last week...

Dropped off a toy for Aiden today at the office. Felt like getting something for him since my (Ex) bosses were quite good to me. After that, met Angie and Winston for lunch today. T'was a really good lunch. Hehe.... Talked about quite a couple of things and I saw some light in my past history in CNET. Hehehe... Somehow, I do feel slightly more comforted. Yeah yeah.. it's all in the past and I should let it go... in fact I have already, just that something slight feelings do return when somethings are dug up from memory... it's nothing like reopening the wound... it's not fresh hurt.... but it's just remnants, the trace of the feelings that were left behind. The familiarity of the situation....

Anyway, am hoping that I'll have some good news tonight. HOPEFULLY... Keeping my fingers crossed.... Will update more later then! :)

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Sunshine after the rain...

I once was lost...
but now am found...
was blind...
but now I see...

It's official! Today's my last day at work....

I can't help but feel really relieved... and truly happy! At the same time, I am feeling the 'break-up guilt' and am feeling terribly bad about how I troubled my 'new' bosses.... Sigh

But it sure seems like the right thing to do...

I was seeking for a route to take...
while heading towards a direction that I was sure...
Somehow, I looked around,
and saw my options at that particular junction...
I decided on one... and walked straight on...
It turned out to be wrong... And I needed an U-turn...
Before it was too late...
But nothing made me more glad,
then the U-turn that I took...
Cause when I was heading back to the junction,
my mood lifted and I was feeling lighter...
As if I could start flying...
And on to the next junction,
I will walk...

Monday, April 04, 2005

Tears...

The angels have been shedding tears of joy, flooding the earth for the last few days...

While I have been shedding tears of grief....

It sure seems to me that the Pope's passing on, is an occasion for rejoice... Because I believe he is called Home, to where he belongs now. Like what was said during the Homily this evening, it's time that he enjoyed his rewards beside the Father... in heaven.

However, I grieve to think that it might have taken the death of the Pope to bring me back to where I belong. The irony lies in the fact that the loss of a Shepherd, has brought a lost sheep home.

It took the passing on of the Pope, to bring me back to church today, for his memorial mass... It took an occasion like this, to force me to muster up the courage that I lacked, to seek forgiveness, to return to face a place where I've avoided for the last few months. It also took an occasion as such, to bring me back on track, to take a U-turn, from a route that I should not have chosen.

I can't help but think of how significant the last couple of days it has been for me.

As with how Jesus died on the cross for the people, to wash away our sins with His blood, the Pope did too. He died for me... for many others... and the rain that has been showering down on earth the last few days, sure seem to signify the washing of sins, of mine... away....

He brought me back to church, and as turbulous the last week has been with my new job, somehow he gave me strength to move on. Life's too short. I was also blessed by having plentiful of support from friends and family. Yeah... News: I resigned from my job only after a week.

But I felt like that's the right thing to do because I simply cannot stomach the work. The job seem to be a misfit for me... Or rather, Me a misfit for the job.

As wonderful as my new bosses are... It's my loss that I cannot work for them. They are truly warm and sincere people. But I guess for my mental health... I had to do it. Not being able to breathe or sleep, sure ain't no joke.

Anyway, the memorial was good. Helped me recollect what I should have been doing. Also reminded me that the past should just be treasured for its values, not its flaws. And I should move on with a lighter heart... :)

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

3rd day of work...

Already work's accumlating.. building up...

Taking a breather now that nobody's in office for a while. Hah!

Anyway, have 4 assignments on hand... and can see it keep coming. Things are still ok for now, when I'm taking it in my stride, prioritizing... seeing which is due first, which goes first...

Just finished writing a blurb, an EDM and a simple VOD synopsis. So I guess there's no problem in taking a short break... Haha...

Anyway, I can't seem to settle down to work properly knowing that my laptop (office) needs to be reformatted and reconfigured. Ain't too assured in pumping in too much info and storing stuff when I constantly need to back it up on my thumb drive... So yeah

Hopefully my laptop can be settled by tomorrow.

Anyway while work's going tough (for a start), the future does seem a little exciting. Haha... Was out for lunch with boss for a while and she kept getting calls for new business... Oh wells...

While that means more work, it also means more opportunities for more work, which also means I'll have more work... which means I'll soon be able to live up to the speed of work here... *hopefully*... Wait... do I make sense?

Argh nevermind... Hahaah... Am blabbering... I know.

Well, I'll be off now, to digest all those techy thingys..... Ta for now...

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Tuesdays with Morrie...

"An old man, a young man, and life's greatest lesson"

A fantastic book!

I've not read a real meaningful book as good as this in a long while... While I would not like to say too much about the book, (the book's too good to be reproduced in summary), I would like to share some of the quotes that I find most meaningful here...

Definitely brought enlightenment to me in some sense... just hoping I'll always keep them in mind...

How often have we felt like this? - "Shouldn't the world stop? Don't they know what has happened to me?"

Yet, how it should be - "I give myself a good cry if I need it. But then I concentrate on all the good things still in my life."
- " How useful it would be to put a daily limit on self-pity. Just a few tearful minutes, then on with the day."

When right perspective to death - "To know you're going to die, and to be prepared for it at any time. That way you can actually be more involved in your life while you're living"
- "Everyone knows they're going to die, but nobody belives it."
- "Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live."
- "Everyone knows someone who has died. Why is it so hard to think of dying?"

A lesson on Love - "Love each other or perish."

Sensible maturity - "Do not stop your lives. Otherwise this disease will have ruined three of us instead of one."

The beauty in Aging/ Dying - "As you grow, you learn more. If you stayed at twenty-two, you'd always be as ignorant as you were at twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It's growth. It's more than the negative that you're going to die, it's also the positive that you understand you're going to die, and that you live a better life because of it."

Why the wish to remain young? - "Unsatisfied lives. Unfulfilled lives. Lives that haven't found meaning. Because if you've found meaning in your life, you don't want to go back. You want to go forward. You want to see more, do more. you can't wait until sixty-five."

A lesson on our culture today - "People are only mean when they're threatened, and that's what our culture does. That's what our economy does. Even people who have jobs in our economy are threatened, because they worry about losing them. And when you get threatened, you start looking out only for yourself. You start making money a god."

Last but not least, a really nice story from the story...

"The story is about a little wave, bobbing along in the ocean, having a grand time. He's enjoying the wind and the fresh air - until he notices the other waves in front of him, crashing against the shore.

'My God, this is terrible,' the wave says. 'Look what's going to happen to me!'

Then along came another wave. It sees the first wave looking grim, and it says to him, 'Why do you look so sad?'

The first wave says, 'You don't understand! We're all going to crash! All of us waves are going to be nothing! Isn't it terrible?'

The second wave says, 'No, YOU don't understand. You're not a wave, you're part of the ocean.'"

My first day of work...

SOBZ!

That pretty much describes it. I mean... it seems worse than I thought. Or maybe it's because I was overwhelmed by all that they said I had to take over eventually...

But it IS bad when I had to bring work home to do on the 1st day of work! Already!

I don't suppose I HAVE to do it but being new, I don't know what they think about if I do not bring work home to do, and try to manage my time and get stuff done during office hours. OH well... Reading Tuesdays with Morrie has taught me that there are many many other things apart from work that matters....

Anyway, I felt so stressed yesterday that I felt so miserable! Couldn't stop the tears from flowing down my cheeks... seriously... There's so much technical writing to do! No joke... It's all about technical writing... at least that's what I see now...

Back to work today, and I'm currently left alone in office for now till my lady boss comes in at 11am. So well, just leaving some updates here and I'm back to work... Got stuff to CLEAR already.... Wish me luck guys....

Sunday, March 27, 2005

Butterflies in my tum tum...

That's how I am feeling right now. Ok, perhaps it's not that bad but do feel a little like that...

Just anticipating how my new career will go... how the new work place will be like... how my work load will be like... So guess it's normal that I'm feeling kinda anxious...

But am still looking forward to it! For sure! And am pretty sure that I will have no problems trying to get to sleep tonight too...

Feeling rather sleepy already.... hahah... Wish me luck guys... wish me all the best!

Thursday, March 24, 2005

The fairy tale dimension...

Just finished reading two books lately. Mitch Alboom's "The five people you meet in heaven" and "Girl with a pearl earring" by Tracy Chevalier.

Both books are very different. And yet both books are beautifully written.

Every book that I read, I can't help getting intricately interwoven with the characters and the plot in the book. I just love reading.

Sometimes I feel that it is because reading provides me with another dimension that I cannot gain access to in reality. That's what reading is all about for me. It is a vicarious experience through the author's eyes, through the author's thoughts. In reading a piece of work by other authors, I can't help but have my own thoughts evoked as I go through their experience. I like it... Removes the mundane from my life... It's almost like a fairy-tale dimension. The same reason why people like watching fairytale cartoons or movies.

Most of the time, when I do chance upon a really good book, I can't help feeling sad and reluctant to put the book down when the story has ended.

Just like the "Girl with the pearl earring".



I love books with a cultural background to it and this one has one. It's a book about a girl who's father went blind, due to an accident when working with the kiln. Because of the loss of income, the girl has to work as a maid, for a rather famous painter. And the story goes on and on about her life as a maid, and the plot more or less hinges on her attractiveness, her humbleness and the jealousy others have of her.

Anyway, what I love about the book is that I did learn something from it. I learnt about painters and pictures. I discovered certain features of paintings. Also of how a painting is not just a painting because of the work processes, the thought processes that takes place before a painter can lay down his first strokes of the paintbrush on the canvas. Beautiful...

Sigh.. but the book has ended... life must now go on... to other books! Am going to start reading "Tuedays with Morrie" by Mitch Alboom! Heard it's better than "The five people you meet in heaven". Hehe... Off I go...

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

So Scchhwwweeettt......

Heheh, my little niece had her 2nd birthday over the weekend... and boy it was so sweet....

Check out the cake and you can imagine....

Birthday Cake!


Not only was the cake sweet.... Her place was really nice too! So happens that they just shifted into their new place earlier this month. So her parents took the opportunity to hold her birthday and a housewarming (2-in-1) kinda thingy....

Anyway, the weekend at her place was pretty nice. It's right beside Parkway Parade and opposite East Coast. Just imagine (of course I don't have to.. I'm asking you to!) the seaview and all! Delicious! Have already warned my cousin to be prepared for me to drop by if I do go East Coast to blade at times! Hehehe... because... just check out her POOL!

Cote D'Azur


Shiok RIGHT? And there's sauna and all... OooOohhh...

Anywyay, stayed up till 5.30am playing games yesterday! Don't think I'll do the same thing today... so shall be going off to bed now... it's now 2.40am... Heheh...

Till tomorrow... more to blog! Ta...

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Addiction...

ARGH!

I've got a new addiction thanks for YAU WEI LIANG!

He registered me with his online games site recently, testing out his new feature whereby the site is able to capture your high scores for the games on his site. This would mean that competition amongst registered users is now possible.

While I'm not out to beat everyone who play the games on the site, I've been trying to play the games and beat my own high score... AND since I reached home and started playing at 10ish, I've been playing non-stop trying to beat my own highscores... it's well over 3 now.. so you can imagine... ARGH!

TO think that I've got so many things to blog about. Well, guess I shall do my bloggin tomorrow...

Haha.. back to beating high scores for this game I'm currently playing.

For those who are interested, feel free to visit http://highscores.arcadeonline.com ... Hehehe.. Have fun!

Friday, March 18, 2005

Kisses...

Nicely wrapped up...



Tell me they are cute!


Heh... decided to have some little farewell gifts for my colleagues of 3 weeks. Yeah! Today's my last day at the law firm and though time has been short, I would say that I have pretty much enjoyed myself. Kinda gotten used to the 'work' over at the firm though I'm only dealing with the most basic of stuffs.

Anyway, glad to have gotten to know some really nice people.

That is also why I decided to leave some 'sweet' impressions of myself on them! Haha.... :P

Something happened today. TEC called me up for a 2nd interview! WOooOOoo.... But the dilemma is this. I have already accepted the offer for my other company. Guess I have to inform TEC on Monday that I won't be able to go for the 2nd interview. I couldn't do it today cuz the lady from TEC called me at a really busy time while I was dealing with clients and phone calls. Which was why I did not have the time to say anything else other than to take down her number and her name.

OH well... so confused now... HOW? I guess the route is clear... just for me to come to terms with it. But anyone else has advice for me out there?

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

New feature!

Yay! Got my tag-board up and going... hehe... so exciting... Hahah.. one of those '3-minutes' enthusiast moments!

Went to see a doc earlier... got some stupid eye infection. Gave me anti-biotics... Got half a mind not to eat it... I HATE anti-biotics...

Why?

I don't really know.. Just this thing... I guess it is because when I attended the micobiology module when I was still in NUS, the lecturer was telling us about how we become immune to bacteria rather easily and I dislike that idea! What if something more serious happens to me in the future and I am already immune to most of the anti-biotic types? Heheh... Paranoia Paranoia...

Anyway, I decided that for the sake of my one and only pair of eyes, I'll take it... Can't afford to lose my sight... Of all people, I would know how bad it is... can't afford to take risks... What if the infection morphs into something more serious... OK.. stop it!!

Hehehe.. nah... just hopes it goes away! I don't wanna spend my one week break with an eye-infection! Arghs!

As busy as a bee...

BzzzBzz... I've been so terribly BUSY! At work, outside work...

Haven't had the peace of time to feel that I've actually got quality time to spend just by myself... Well, guess I've got next week!

Had a gathering with the girls at Eileen's new place on Sunday! T'was a pretty cosy place I would say... Sweet and simple. Anyway, had a pretty good time though it was short. Kinda had an update from everyone. Sure seems like most of us are in the phase of switching careers and all...

- Mel quit her job and intends on doing freelance for a short while...
- Elaine quit her job as an editor and has a position as a customs officer... (Wooo...)
- Grace is doing her practicum and therefore, it means that she is gonna be a full fledge teacher really soon....
- Myself... You all know the story...

But yeah... Hopefully eveything will go well for all of us.

Anyway, have been trying to register for a tag-board for my blog but it's infuriating! The couple of times that I tried to do that on the site, the site seems to be down! Argh... Guess that will have to wait. Well, definitely no urgency for that cuz I don't even know if the tag-board will be put to good use!

Heheh... Met Cat's ex bf at work today. Really surprised to see him! Apparently the bank that he took a housing loan from, appointed us to handle the legal aspects.. So what a small world I would say again.

Highlight of the week: ZEN... Hee Hee...

Friday, March 11, 2005

Blogs...

Hehe... am in office waiting for the rest of my colleagues to come back from a process called "completion" in conveyancing terms... So decided to take some time to pen down some thoughts...

Just finished reading the blog of this nice lady lawyer from office and was impressed with her style of writing. Simple words, but nicely spaced out... beautifully illustrated. Hehe.. The power of a lawyer's language competancy...

Then something occurred to me... in her blog she mentioned that she loves poems.... Being a lover of poem, inherently her writing style is almost in that of a prose... (Hahah.. she mentioned later that she does make an effort to craft her entries...) For myself, I'm a ignoramus when it comes to poems. What I love reading are novels... And thus my long winded style of writing.

Anyway, reading Yas's blog makes me feel like adding a tag board. Hahaha... Maybe I shall go add one for the fun of it... even if nobody tags.. :P

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

A new job... and so a hopeful new beginning...

Yups! The title of this entry says it all I guess....

Got meself a job offer and after much thought, I decided to take it up. Am actually still waiting for a couple other companies to get back to me, but I think this offer somehow gives me a good feeling about it.

Well, the money's not that good really. Just a couple of hundred increment from my last drawn pay at CNET which was ABSOLUTELY pathetic... even my colleague and 'shi xiong' said that I would and could easily have gotten more if I had tried to fight for it. But because of that pathetic pay I was getting, there was no way that this company would give me anything higher than a couple hundreds of increment. Sigh... Poor me... Always feel that I'm struggling with the financial part but hopefully God has plans for me....

Like the message that Angie sent me a couple of days back, "If He brings you to it, He will bring you through it." It stayed stuck in my head ever since I read it and I'm pretty sure that it was a message that He wanted me to get....

Anyway, money issues aside... The pros of accepting this offer easily outweighs the cons... it's a small firm, so working style's pretty casual and informal... (of course work's work and all... but at least there's not that much of a rigid corporate structure). Being the 'shy' me, it would be easier for me to adapt to a company that currently involves only 3 others. 2 of whom are the bosses. Heh... had a chat with them actually (during my 1st 'interview') and they seem pretty nice.

Also, I appreciate the fact that by accepting me, I was sure that they are willing to invest time to train and teach me stuff.... Because I spelt out to them that as much as I am comfortable working independently, I am only confident of doing that when I have sufficient guidance and when I know what I need and have to do. Being a 4-man show team... I suppose I will have to "cover mountain, cover sea"... which equates to maximum exposure for me. Which is GOOD! Because what I am out to do is to learn as many things as possible.

The other down side about this job though, is the distance I have to travel daily... Buona Vista... That's two third of the journey to NUS. And the writing component... I have to look forward to loads of tech writing... Pro or Con... yet to tell.. See how things go...hehehe but overall, excited and looking forward to learning loads of stuff.....

Anyway, am so bushed that I'm off to bed for now...

Highlight of the week:

Easter Bunny...